Meditation, quiet relaxation, feeling the earth, the trees, enjoying the beauty of a view or the sunset can help you reach a “non-ordinary” state of consciousness, where the pressures of living in a body can be greatly reduced to the extent that you can become momentarily unaware of it. When that happens, you experience a sense of sublime peace. Most of you have at some time had an experience like this, and you never forget it. For some it is very intense, for others just an extremely peaceful release from the stress of daily living, but it is unforgettable. It is a veiled glimpse of Reality that you would love to experience more frequently and easily, and yet it seems to elude you no matter how hard you try to re-experience it. And of course the trick is not to try, and that too is very difficult. Once experienced, you cannot help yearning for it and looking for it whenever you think that you are close to that inner place in which it occurred.
But of course a non-ordinary state of consciousness is really an extremely ordinary state! It is just that because of the distractions of the illusion it is very rarely experienced. The illusion is an all-encompassing environment that demands your constant attention. The thing is that you do not have to respond to those demands. It is incumbent on you to be aware of them, but then you must decide whether or not to comply with them. That is what free will is all about.
Far too frequently your ego succeeds in convincing you that as you live in this world it would be foolish, even insane, not to cooperate with it fully – you need to earn your living, sort out your relationships, attend to your children, keep your body in good shape, take out health insurance, not make yourself look a total idiot by trying to be honest in a dishonest world – and its reasoning seems so reasonable. But, deep within yourselves you sense that something about this reasoning is seriously amiss — and you are correct.
Everyone experiences dissatisfaction with human existence, and yet you often reason that this is the human condition. But that does not ease your dissatisfaction. You may bury it as you actively work very hard at playing out the hand that you have been dealt. Nevertheless, deep within you there is a sense of anxiety, a sense that you are missing out on something, that there must “please God!” be more to life than this endless struggle to survive. Others do not seem to suffer from this angst, so you dare not discuss it with anyone, and you just soldier on.
That inner yearning is your divine wake-up call. It is not a psychotic threat to your sanity. But because you all experience life as separated, individual, you cannot see how others feel, and you worry that you are horribly different from all those basically normal people you see all around you. And when you see someone trapped in some sort of addiction, or homeless on the streets, it confirms for you that the world is a very dangerous place and that you must conform or sink. So you keep your angst to yourselves, as a closely guarded secret.
Yes, some of you may enter psychotherapy in the hope of achieving some kind of relief, but you are also aware of people who have spent years in therapy with no obviously beneficial results – they just keep changing therapists – unless they are lucky enough to find someone who is open to deeper discussions of their issues and who will look at them from a spiritual standpoint.
So that angst, that dissatisfaction, is your intuition attempting to make contact with you by distracting you from the distractions of the illusion. It feels like an inner conflict between “shoulds,” as part of you feels honor bound to do them and part of you wants freedom from doing them. It is very confusing for you.
Keep reminding yourselves that these feelings are to encourage you to spend time quietly, alone, without distractions (phone, TV, children, spouses), when you make a point of not focusing on the anxieties and worries of daily life (it can help to play some soothing music quietly in the background), and just let go! Maybe you will weep, maybe you will laugh, or maybe nothing will apparently occur, but by allowing yourself that time, and by thus honoring yourself, even if only for five minutes during the day, you will strengthen your self-esteem, your God-given right to be yourself (after all, who else can you be?), and in those minutes your heart will open to accept the constantly offered gift of God’s Love for you – and you will feel it as a moment of peace or of self-validation.
You owe yourself that personal, private space every day, because it is where you can find the peace and the stillness you need to strengthen your ability to hold the Light and allow it to burn ever more brightly within you. You are all bright jewels, piercing through the gloom and despondency of the illusion, and showing the way towards awakening. This is your duty and your joy as the divine way-showers that you are, and by making time for yourselves daily, you will experience that joy and know you are on your path doing precisely what you incarnated to do.
Others may well try to dissuade you from offering love, compassion, and honesty indiscriminately in every situation. But you know, deep within yourselves, that this is your path, and that just by living it and demonstrating it you are changing the whole world!
With so very much love, Saul.
By John Smallman ~~ 8-1-12
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